And I admit, I’m a little embarrassed by it. 😣
This time last year, I was convinced that Out of Egypt would be done before the end of 2014. I remember saying as much, which I think many creative people would admit is a bloody lethal thing to do! Because not long after I made that rash promise, I discovered something very wrong with the manuscript.
One day when I went to read over what I had in preparation for filling in one of the gaps still left to write, I realised something awful: I hated it. Great chunks which I had slaved over and rewritten a dozen times, chunks which I had been eminently pleased with, suddenly seemed trite and predictable. Characters were telling me, in no uncertain terms, that they would never have done what I had them doing, and they weren’t going to stand for it. And the problem was, they were right.
I realised I needed to pull apart and reassemble at least half of what I had – over a year’s work, in effect – and that I wasn’t even certain that I could do it. It had literally gotten into such a mess that I was attempting to unravel the Gordian knot by tackling the issues at all. And I was embarrassed that I’d been so confident of having it done, previously. I figured the only thing to do was to maintain radio silence until such a time as I had most of it worked out – if I never did manage it, then people might just forget about me. And if I *did* work a minor miracle and pull the story back into harness, then I could come back with the end very definitely in sight and a good chance of delivering the goods imminently.
So, you’ve probably guessed it: the fact that I’m blogging at all means I did it, in the end. I’ve rewritten scenes twenty times over; I’ve cut things I loved and added things that I never saw coming. Alice finally knows what she wants and so, too, do I. I still have those tiny gaps to fill in, little scenes that string together all the big ones I have completed, but they were never going to be very difficult. I just hope I haven’t lost you along the way and that it will be worth the wait.
Stay tuned! I’ll probably be giving you another preview or two very shortly. 😊